Leo Carnelian - Emotions (feat. Anders Pettersen) Lyrics

I don't want to be trapped in this shit, call it madness - it is
But I'd rather be mad than scared of this shit
I'm a disaster, life's like a panic attack
And I'm gambling with time like an addict
Stuck behind bars, I ain't talking bandits
I'm adding a brick to the wall as I rap it
I need to see the world, and I ain't talking acid
I need to get my ass off the chair, run faster, you bitch
I've got a vision, a dream, just need a tactic
Mad sick of sitting asking myself
"Andy, what's the matter with you?"
When the answer was always that I feel inadequate
Tear me apart, I'm in need of something drastic
Gotta go, I gotta make the adventure fantastic
And I don't even care if I never make it back
Cause if I don't even try I might just jump off a damn canyon
And watch it all fade to black

Emotions emerging from the shadows
Approaching like servants of hell
Emotions emerging from the depth of my heart
Closer, I'm flirting with fear
But she's more afraid of me
But she's more afraid of me

I don't want to be stuck in a place of amenity
Slowly losing faith and sanity
I'm vanishing, glance at me, I'm a problematic error with a beat
Desolate, bleak, daydreaming 'bout clarity
I'm absent-minded, feels like life is a narrative
Got no control of the plane but it flies automatically
Tired of everything, my life is a parody
Of how I could be living today if I weren't scared of it
Wanna talk about friends? I've never had any
Frankly, even my personality abandoned me
And the rascals in my head laugh at me
As the fractals in the mirror shatters the glass
Casting fragments at me
Dread pulls me closer in slow-motion to dance with me
Magically, I'm feeling overly relaxed
Even though I know, like gravity, she's dragging me down
It's happening now, it all fades to nothing. Good bye

Emotions emerging from the depth of my heart
Closer, I'm flirting with fear

Deep inside I feel a villain hides
I don't want to be feeling delirious while singing "it will be fine"
I don't want to be singing the same old lies over a million times
I don't want to be a winner, a god, a super hero with powers
I just want to be king of my own life, own life, alright
King of my own life, king of my own life, own life, alright
King of my own life, king of my own life, own life, alright
King of my own life, king of my own life, own life, alright
Don't let it own you