Feels like I'm losing control
These thoughts belong to someone else
I know you don't understand
I'll paint a picture for you (picture for you)
Chest tight when I'm tryin' to breathe
Closed eyes when I'm tryin' to see
I know it's hard to believe
But now I'll show you what I mean
Everything I see hints
Premonitions of violence
If I see red you'll bleed it
So why can't you hear me
These voices in my head
Why do I listen to them
All they do is consume my thoughts with hatred
Now your world is in my hand
And I hold it up to your head
You should've listened when I said
I can't control any of this
Mouth shut when I'm tryin' to speak
Peeled eyes when I'm tryin' to sleep
I know it's hard to believe
But now everyone can see
Everything you see is my sickness
Manifested as violence
I'm seeing red, you're bleeding it
Why didn't you hear me
I know it sounds crazy
But I can't control myself
I knew I needed help
So I reached out (reached out)
You never answered (never answered)
I needed help (needed help)
I can't beat this sickness back by myself
When I finally break the chains that have made me a slave for so long
The bloody patterns' shine
And the flashes of light
Give proof to my eyes of all that's gone wrong
Back against the wall
So I paint my final masterpiece when I put the gun up to my head