as i fall Video (MV)

Watch as I fall back into old routines and do nothing at all
Inhaling nicotine, ignoring all the calls
Try to leave the house, but I feel my doors turn to a wall
Used to run through life, but now I've let it go
And I don't wanna wait no more
Not what I was put in this life for
Try to push for more
Give me something to fight for
Day by day, I'm just watching this life pass me by
I lost my sense of time, yeah
I just sit in my room getting high and try not to cry
Have I lost my mind yet,
I don't know myself anymore, yeah
I'm feeling torn, lay down and my eyes won't shut
I've been walking the streets after 4 till my feet get sore
Smoke blunts till the world wakes up
I rinse and repeat, gave up on my dream
I write to try, feel like I'm not just a waste of space
Don't wanna see a stage, too busy chasing fame
And now they all
Watch as I fall
Back into old routines and do nothing at all
Inhaling nicotine, ignoring all the calls
Try to leave the house, but I feel my doors turn to a wall
Used to run through life, but now I've let it go
And I don't wanna wait no more
Last two years been chasing ghosts
Hatred down to the core
Please don't look when I slit my throat
Cuts on my back
Chained to my past and the chains won't snap
One ounce and a dash
Head down low and my eyes roll back