Lil JJ Reynolds - Unexpected Fantasy Lyrics

We all have dreams and we all have fantasies
Some of us were brought up with no love and no families
Was one of them, as a kid I lost touch
With the world around me, support?, no such thing
Darkness around me made it hard for me to love things
Bitter and didn't give a f*ck about anything
I had a fantasy of living peacefully
But the critical pain's what I've been given frequently
By the devil himself, I swear to god I was cursed
Medication, meditation, nothing seemed to work
All I knew was writing lyrics and exploiting the truth
Explaining every detail of what I've ever been through
Opportunities, I blew 'em when they came in my life
I used to trip, but now I think of failure as no surprise
When I sniff it, I was twisted and so close to be gone
But something told me to hold on, could it be an unexpected fantasy?
Pain changed me, I was forced to grow
If you come to say I have no support, I know
Death was my friend, I was close to go
Speaking out my life, yo, is all I know
Pain changed me, I was forced to grow
If you come to say I have no support, I know
Death was my friend, I was close to go
I'm still alive, could it be an unexpected fantasy?
We all have dreams and we all have fantasies
I fantasized on love, but no-one could ever handle me
So much anxiety, I never could keep
A relationship, I blamed me and always thought it was me
What I was battling inside, made it hard for me to speak
People called me a geek, an uncontrollable freak
Couldn't fit around a soul, when I tried, it would blow
In my face, couldn't keep myself under control
Many reasons to end it, so many things I resented
One of them was money, I spent it, it's evilness, I drove in it
And made a green attitude, I was known as the spinach
Being left alone was why my feelings were livid
I was rugged with a mood of never giving a f*ck
It changed me, had to protect my heart from buzzards, they couldn't touch it
And hell, I was twisted and came close to be gone
But something told me to hold on, could it be an unexpected fantasy?
Pain changed me, I was forced to grow
If you come to say I have no support, I know
Death was my friend, I was close to go
Speaking out my life, yo, is all I know
Pain changed me, I was forced to grow
If you come to say I have no support, I know
Death was my friend, I was close to go
I'm still alive, could it be an unexpected fantasy?