Lil_murky - At My Worst Lyrics

I'm trying to hold in all this hurt
(I'm trying to hold in all this hurt)
Got me thinking that I am cursed
(Got me thinking that I am cursed)
I had to tell her this wasn't gonna work
(I had to tell her this wasn't gonna work)
Cause I don't want her to see me at my worst
(I don't want her to see me at my worst)
All my problems are catching up with me
Need Sherlock Holmes cause these demons be a mystery
Not even Bob the builder could end up fixing me
So In hell is where the devil is sticking me
I fall down
But I don't see myself getting back up It's over now
The demons I try drown them out
But they wont stop until I'm buried underground
I need healing
Cause all my emotions are revealing
And these demons
Distract me from telling you really how I'm feeling
I'm trying to hold in all this hurt
(I'm trying to hold in all this hurt)
Got me thinking that I am cursed
(Got me thinking that I am cursed)
I had to tell her this wasn't gonna work
(I had to tell her this wasn't gonna work)
Cause I don't want her to see me at my worst
(I don't want her to see me at my worst)
Today hasn't been my day
So I gotta send her away
Cause I'm heading back to a place
Where I cannot escape
I don't wanna bring you down with me
When it feels like the demons are surrounding me
I'll face the darkness alone I won't let you see
The weight of the struggle that is consuming me
I need healing
Cause all my emotions are revealing
And these demons
Distract me from telling you really how I'm feeling
I'm trying to hold in all this hurt
(I'm trying to hold in all this hurt)
Got me thinking that I am cursed
(Got me thinking that I am cursed)
I had to tell her this wasn't gonna work
(I had to tell her this wasn't gonna work)
Cause I don't want her to see me at my worst
(I don't want her to see me at my worst)