Lover could you take my picture
To see If I'm still here?
Feel you slipping through my fingers
I've become transparent as my fears
I'm a good kid
I'm a bad kid
I don't know dad,
I just wasn't thinking
I don't even have no reason
I just did that shit I was feeling so..
I don't know,
Lost and confused and out of control
Back to the wall left out in the cold
Like nobody knows me knows
What's going on up inside my head
Daily wishing that I was...
Wishing I was Content instead
Constant anger with hints of dread
Lost myself and I can't go back
Need your help but I just can't ask
I'm so tired of letting down
The only ones that I care about
I'm so sorry you're scared right now
Not quite sure of my whereabouts
Where I'm going or where I've been
Can't have this conversation again
Cause it goes the same every single time
Got your opinions and I've got mine
I've got a void inside my soul
I don't think That I can be whole
I'm not sure what I supposed to do
Not quite sure what I mean to you
I'm so glad that I earned your trust
I wish that could equate to love
Don't ask why I won't let you In
You want truth and I'm lying again
You can't see it, I blend right in
Still a snake when I shed my skin
I'm a good kid
I'm a bad kid
I don't know mom I'
Just feel so empty
I know there's a good man in me
But he's sick and he's dying swiftly
Nothings ever enough
I buy an ounce and I roll it all up
Gone in a day and I dont feel a buzz
I hate who I am and I miss who I was
Sometimes I can barely remember
How I got myself through the winter
When the world brought the rain down on me
Crushed in between its pincers
Crushed by the weight of conscious
Head hurts and I feel so nautious
Attitude so f*cking toxic
You can miss me with all that nonsense
I've been gone for the moment
Here's my heart god I hope you can hold it
It's in bad shape, I know it
The last one squeezed it until it was broken
It never works out
But here's hoping
I've got to go to work now
See you in the morning
If you're still here
If I come home
There's someone in my blood
That I don't know