London Daé - Hold on / Don't Die Alone (feat. James Santana) Lyrics

I often wonder
How the me I run away from is doing
Is she growing
While I'm branched off
With stunted foliage from hurting
Is she dreaming magical dreams
While I am waking up in a cold sleep
Does she feel tortured by the distance
As I do when I'm distant
Does she worry I'll never return
From the escape and go missing
Is it me she sees
Wishing I'd be a better me
Does she look at me cowardly
Sees me as the enemy
Has she no belief
That I would be happily ever after
Is she even running after
Or has she turned her back
Why is it that oceans don't reflect her
Or the moon doesn't light up her Direction
Did I lose her entirely
From avoiding all her reflections
Does she still scream in the night
Does she still bleed in her soul
Does she still reach for my hand
For me to just let her go
Does she know that I love her
Does she still even care
Does it pierce her lungs also
When I am gasping for air
Did she surrender to my selfishness
To my Self sabotage
Does she still look up to God
Is she an illusion or am I the mirage
Does she still carry the weight
Does she still have all the scars
Do the tears emboss her face
Are they her tears or are they ours
I can't tell no more
Looking at myself
I can't bear no more
Weight is getting heavy
I can't even stand no more
Try but I can't win no more
All these people and places
Begin to look the same
Tranquilize me
Your presence was all the calming
I needed
Feel fragmentized
Don't know if I can pick up the pieces
These aches and pains
Antagonizing
I'm going insane
Fantasizing is the only method
That makes it okay
I bet the night doesn't fall on your Sun
I know I know
I bet the morning is
As bright as they come
I've been told
You were the we
That made the dark overturn
I'm afraid
You became my hero
I don't know who I've become
I love myself
I love myself
I do
But sometimes I can't hold on
Sometimes I can't hold on
Oh no
I love myself
I love myself
I do
What it takes to be strong
Don't feel I can be strong
Oh no
I was never taught how to love
I never learned
Desensitized by the struggle
I'd rather burn
I hear you calling out faintly
Growing concerned
The strain grew heavy
Yet the journey was worth it
But still I yearn
Had to sacrifice
My antenna so I could heal
All it did
Was grow me more layers
For you to peel
As I hid
You showed me you loved me
It felt so real
Seal the lid
I know that you feel it
But you've concealed
Like I did
I've given you all that I've had to give
Tryna live
Been fighting these demons
Since we were kids
I won't bid
My loved ones goodbye
When I choose to RIP
When I rid
Myself of this vacant vessel
Forgive
Forgive me for all that I've put you through
You could've reverted your energy
Into something to push you through
To find your highest self
You've given me light and it helps
But I can't keep on living with all of my shadows I'm by myself
Inherited imbalances yet empathy
Was countless
We need to protect our seeds
Take heed of what we feed the grounded
Don't let your circumstance define you
Ancestors they stand beside you
Future ancient generations
Generated deep inside you
I tread despite my loss of direction
From muted blips of inflection
Now I can feel your objection
Was close to letting go
I looked and saw my reflection
I guess they call that
What was it
Oh
Natural selection
These people fear for infection
But wont step to fight the oppression
Provided with dots and lines
But they're afraid of connection
I started questioning my allies
Now I'm my
ENEMY
People have tried befriending me
But they ain't who they pretend to be
See
But I see you within myself in misdirection
You ever get the feeling that we're being protected
The moment I graphed my planes
I witnessed myself in my reflection
My muse, my suppression
My mirrored soul in 5th dimension
I love myself
I love myself
I do
But sometimes I can't hold on
Sometimes I can't hold on
Oh no
I love myself
I love myself
I do
What it takes to be strong
Don't feel I can be strong
Oh no