I have this house of cards
Stack it up in my backyard
Winter comes and it's knocked over
Always dreading next Octob-
Next Octob
Next Octob
I have this house of cards
Stack it up in my backyard
Winter comes and it's knocked over
Always dreading next October
I have this house of courage
Always broken, feel discouraged
People come and knock it over
Never, ever getting closure
Melt my wax heart with the fires of your wickedness
Felt the axe fall on supplier of my happiness
You knelt by the side of my tire while I'm gripping this
I felt every fiber of my being rip, when you pulled the rug
Sent you all my love, gave me indecisive shrugs
Now I'm being divided up into fractions of myself
Nah, fractals of myself
Bet you cackled when I fell
Like an apple to the dome, gravity sets in
Reality has been broken from within
The sky is falling down
I'm high above the ground
I fall just like a pedal
They stomp on me and metal
I use it as my petrol
These harmonies are special
I use them as my vessel
To wave about my message
My pain, my joy express it
So I'm here most the time, spittin' all these clever rhymes
I have this house of cards
Stack it up in my backyard
Winter comes and it's knocked over
Always dreading next October
I have this house of courage
Always broken, feel discouraged
People come and knock it over
Never, ever getting closure
The King of my house is a Jack of all trades
Could fall at any moment, like I made it with a spade
Took a swing at my heart with a club, hit a vein
Got impostor syndrome with friendships
The cost of this is horrendous
It's like a court in my head
Make a racket with the mallet like tennis
It's senseless, so endless
Defenseless, momentous occasions
Weld together, like abrasions
Same old scar with a different location
Same old heart, just a different sensation
Played my part now I'm all out of patience
All out of patience
Same old heart, just a
Ay
Same old heart, just a different sensation
I have this house of cards
Stack it up in my backyard
Winter comes and it's knocked over
Always dreading next October
I have this house of courage
Always broken, feel discouraged
People come and knock it over
Never, ever getting closure
It's hard to breathe when you're fully submerged
Me swimming in this ocean, people call it absurd
Impossible to leave without a clear word
False hope is a sickness that can't be unheard
It's lonely in this liquid, and I know it leads to sickness
So I'm hoping I can ditch it but it holds me like a prison
And it shows me fake visions of a future so unwritten
Have to make the right decision or the cost will not surrender
Have to make the right decision or be lost to this forever