Lucid - Wake Up Call Lyrics

I been drinking too much
Easing my mental by leaving it numb
Look in the mirror, can't believe what I've become
Weed crumbs all on my jeans, I get peace from
I know this life is evil
Cause I gave mine just to provide for my people
Aside from that, the worst part is I feel like she's fine without me, what's the rhyme or reason?
My friends hit me up like where's the bangers
But this real life, and my life been crazy
Drama with the BM, I gotta beat it, my dad and momma disappointed in me cause I'm feeling defeated
But to my sons, just know your daddy tried
Just us and your mom, living a happy life
Every day she tell me that I'm past my prime
It's time grow up, sit on your ass and act fine
I don't think y'all understand I'm on the edge
Of falling off track, tell me how I've lost my head
I'm in it deep now, emotions I've caught and spread
I've lost friends, we can make amends when I'm dead
And you won't get no f*cking texts when I leave red
Get it, cause I really wanna release led
Silly, thinking it's cool cause I sleep in bed with you, my peace been f*cked since the day I messed with you
F*ck you, don't impress you, big deal
Plenty women wanna go fishing from this reel
I don't want set no example for my kids
To tolerate bullshit in the house they live
It's like ashes to ashes I'm burning out
Passive aggression it's turns to doubt
Rappings a blessing, the talents wild
I'm in the rain looking up to the clouds, I shout