Lucky - AFRAID Lyrics

Sick of people tryna tell me what I can't do
I can't afford to quit, man
I can't lose
Am I humble or just broke?
I can't choose
4 full years in the same shoes
Am I tripping though?
Rappers want the smoke I smoke medicinal
Rappers talk a lot, a lot is fictional
Baby back in town
You say how you feel but I feel different tho
I just wanna talk dont make it difficult
I'll come back around
Right now I be running from myself
And I'm faster than i look
I live exactly how I should
I talked to god they said he'd save me
So I asked him if he could
If he's actually so good
He must be laughing at me still
Got too much pain and too much gas
That I can't pack it in this wood
Okay wait actually I could
But am I actually fulfilled?
Everybody wanna die until they actually get killed
And then naturally they learn
But by that time it's way too late
Everybody wants the truth until it's actually for real
And then naturally they burn
Then the ashes blow away
My rents due on the first
And that's actually today
I'm still mad
And I'm hurt
And that's actually okay
I'm afraid
I'm afraid of who I was
I'm afraid
I'm afraid it's not enough
I'm afraid
I'm afraid of being judged
I'm afraid
I'm afraid I won't wake up
Try to get good with my angels
But I ain't a stranger to danger
I used to go and hang with a gangster
Now I'm tryna hang at the bank
I been breaking the bank
I don't break in the bank
Said the game could do with a change
So I came and gave food to the game
But the game don't care what I say
Cause the game don't care anyway
Wait think I got carried away
I don't wanna have to be alone when I die
I just wanna leave more than a pile of bones when I die
I hope I'm old when I die
Hope its cold when I die
I hate the rain I hate the sun
I hope it snows when I die
I don't want to do this by myself
I don't want to do this by myself
I don't want to do this by myself
I don't wanna, I don't wanna
I'm afraid
I'm afraid of who I was
I'm afraid
I'm afraid it's not enough
I'm afraid
I'm afraid of being judged
I'm afraid
I'm afraid I won't wake up
I take that record off the shelf
Cause it helps me be myself
And it makes me feel more human
That's what music's for
Some get less and some get more
And we act like we all know
But we don't know what we're doing
I say I got no time for you
I'm sorry that I lied to you
Cause I can make the time
And all this time I would've died for you
I should treat you better baby
I wrote you this lil letter baby
I hope I get my story straight
Cause that shit gone live forever baby
I can't lie I'm afraid
I'm afraid of who I was
I'm afraid
I'm afraid it's not enough
I'm afraid
I'm afraid of being judged
I'm afraid
I'm afraid I won't wake up