I wasted all my time and Energy
I gave myself to those who don't
Serve me
The things that was said
Is running round my head
I should find a way to get up off my bed
But my heart is weighing my down like it's lead
I promised negativity
Yea wouldn't get to me
But it's grasp is gripping tighter
So I'm fighting harder
Patching up my wounds palava with a plaster
Catching all my tears and turning them
Into the laughter rather than the anger
That would shatter me
Wasted all my time and energy
Gave myself to those who don't serve me
I see my own reflection and I know what I can be
I've wasted all my life
But I wont anymore
No more wasting
No more pacing
No more hesitating
I ain't waiting
I ain't fading
Even though my heart is breaking
And I ain't hating but I'm taking back my life
And I'm not blaming those around me for them changing
I know that I need saving
From my misbehaving demons
I was facing
With bad habits blazing
Raging with despair
Without a care
Numbing feelings
No love to spare
I was trapped and dragged through
The devils Lair
Smiling's just the surface
I'm aiming for my purpose
I know I am not worthless
Oh hello self-worth
I miss my best friend
I see myself a writing a message
And then deleting it before I press send
Then repeating it
But I'm done competing
Between my well-being
And battling to be seen.
Wasted all my time and energy
I gave myself to those who don't serve me
I see my own reflection and I know what I can be
I've wasted all my life
But I wont anymore