Luna Scar - Cortisol Lyrics

I've got high levels of cortisol in my streams
Nothing seems to help, not even therapy
My fight or flight mode is always on
Always on, always on
My body is owned by a stranger
And I want to get to know her
But she isn't real, she is my imposter
My heart rate elevates to a point
Too far to come back down
I'm frightened for my being
And the people who live in my town
I am a sinner
And I'm a liar
I'm not a winner
But I'm alive
I don't deserve
I don't deserve
Deserve to be alive
I don't deserve
I don't deserve
I don't deserve
I need science to prove that I am what I think I am
I want a label to know where I stand
I've been stepping on eggshells trying to describe my secret
I can't control who I am under these conditions
Maybe he was right
Maybe I'm too depressed to be loved and
Maybe he was right
Maybe I am too depressed to be loved
Maybe he was right
Maybe I'm too depressed to be loved
Maybe he was right
Maybe he was right
I am a sinner
And I'm a liar
I'm not a winner
But I'm alive
I don't deserve
I don't deserve
Deserve to be alive
I don't deserve
I don't deserve
I don't deserve
Bravado in abundance
But a girl's going through it
That's why I'm taciturn
No one bares my language fluence
F-f-f-f-fluence
I want to get better
I want to stop seeing phantoms
I don't want a life
Of romanticised gruesome
I am a sinner
And I'm a liar (And I'm a liar)
I'm not a winner
But I'm alive (But I'm alive)
I don't deserve
I don't deserve
Deserve to be alive
I don't deserve
I don't deserve
I don't deserve
I don't deserve
Yeah, I don't deserve