The Pool Video (MV)

I have no where to speak
I'm so mentally mute
It comes out like vomit
But it really has no use
My voice has been silenced
No one listens, it's true
They've shushed me, they've shunned me
I can't help but feel blue
La da da da da da
Da da da oh
And then we brushed shoulders
It got a lil less colder
My mind is playing games
But I know I'm not sober
I'm drinking to get by
Singing to get high
Screaming on paper
But it doesn't feel right
I don't believe in saying it's okay
'Cause it only makes it okay
For you to do it again
And it's probably not okay
For me not to be okay
But I live for the pain
I thrive on the pain
For my tongue is severed
From the words I never say
They try to leave the castle
But get stuck at the gates
I'm my own worst enemy
No one understands
I'm plagued by the calendar
The days never pass
I promise you I'm trying
But the high keeps on depriving me
Of simple speech
My mind cannot compete
With the need of repressing feelings
Oh, why, why am I feeling so beat
By my own teeth
They choose not to lead the feat
Hmm
I swear when you touched me
I felt these lively colours explode
And they ran through my body
I'm drowning in deep ends
Sinking on weekends
My mind is a pool
It's infested with demons
Oh
I don't believe in saying it's okay
'Cause it only makes it okay
For you to do it again
And it's probably not okay
For me not to be okay
But I live for the pain
I thrive on the pain
My muses are my weakness
I use the muses for music
And the art, it hurts my heart
I don't say what I need to
The pen does the talking
But I can't, can't do the walking away
The blood is my pass to my fate
I don't believe in saying it's okay
'Cause it only makes it okay
For you to do it again
It's probably not okay
For me not to be okay
But I live for the pain
And I thrive on the pain
I don't believe in saying it's okay
'Cause it only makes it okay
For you to do it again
And it's probably not okay
For me not to be okay
But I live for the pain
I thrive on the pain
I don't believe in saying it's okay (I thrive on the pain)
'Cause it only makes it okay
For you to do it again (Again)
And it's probably not okay
For me not to be okay
But I live for the pain
I thrive on the pain
I thrive on the pain