What's the point
Of even trying anymore
What's the point
Of even trying anymore
I say that I love but you don't believe it
I say that I want you but you cannot see
I know that my life is mystery
Trying to figure out what I was meant to be
Sometimes it's hard to accept this reality
I know that I am my own enemy
Locked in my mind I'm always overthinking
I'm always two shots away from over drinking
I know I cause my own depression
I don't know what's different from love and obsession
I tried to talk you but my chest is still hurting
And avoiding you is really not working
Now I'm thinking I'm becoming a burden
I'm sick of myself so my stomach is turning
I will never be the person you want
And it really hurts cause I know I had thought
That me and you were tied together a knot
I guess I don't fit in this spot
I'd race for your love, but I know I'd be last
I cannot compete, I know Im not fast
You moving on, and I'm finna crash
You gave me a test, but I did not pass
I do this often, I make a mistake
All through the night, I'm always awake
Thinking about, how I could take
Away, all this pain that I ache
I'm missing your smile cuz you had me geeking
Laughing and cuddling throughout the weekend
It was your happiness that I was seeking
But somehow i ended up right on the deep end
No one can save me not even a medic
Sometimes I'm thinking that I am pathetic
And it's been stuck in mind and embedded
That I really don't know where I am headed
Point
Of even trying anymore
What's the point
Of even trying anymore
I say that I love but you don't believe it
I say that I want you but you cannot see
I always see the light before I see the dark
And that's why every time I fall in love I get a broken heart
I've always tried to see the best and be so optimistic
But I guess that means I really haven't been so realistic
Told you my history and still you had played me
I got no trust
You cannot blame me
I really thought you was gon' be my lady
Guess I was wrong
Haven't been right lately
Talking to me while you f*cking another
She never liked me
Used me as cover
Now that they got what they want I don't matter
Saw this shit coming and it's making me sadder
I really don't fit in this place
You wanted me outta your space
I'm taking this L to my face
You made me feel like I'm a waste
I'm chalking this up as a loss
Looking for love got me lost
I gave you my heart and you tossed
Loving you came with a cost
Sick of you and Sick without you thinking you my medicine
I know I'm better off, but in my heart i still can't comprehend
Pulled my strings and played me so artistic like a violin
I give up
I don't think I'll ever try to this shit again