M. J. Withers - Fade Lyrics

Falling down I diminish, I really need a minute
Yeah, I been here too long, try to clear my wrongs, in songs I amend it
Look, breaking down I diminish, I really need a minute
I got this pistol in my hand and I'm aiming at my head
Like nigga just end it man
F*ck this shit, bruh I'm ready to die
At the crossroads wearing black, ready to fly
Rise or fall I don't know but I know where I've been
Alcatraz in my mind, man I'm feeling locked in
Break out, I don't know if I can though
Fade out overturned so I handle
What I receive and believe with my pride interweave
Will I see who I'll be, man there's no guarantee
All these nights full of sweats and this recurring fever
Aching and shaking, it's damn near a seizure
Go to the doctor in hopes of reliever
Just to be told they don't know what's wrong either
Now I'm just pissed cause I ain't making steps
More blood drawn and I'm getting more tests
Kept this a secret, I try not to stress
But I can't hold and it bleeds in my chest
Take a breath, I need to stay alive
Mend all the ties that I feel inside
Set aside my pride how I breathe abides
Man I can't even lie yo, I miss my bride
Yeah we had to let it go cause its killing more
Yeah I know Lord knows what's better for her
Baby girl just leave me, baby just leave me
I know dealing with my crazy ass ain't easy
Step outside and I bask in the night
That's the only time that I ever feel right
Needing more life, more life, more light
Cause I can't afford right, forth night, torn might
Yo is this the world that He gives to me?
Everyday ask the Lord to be healing me
Every night yo I fight they ain't peelin' me
Can't say what's the deal with me
I think I need a minute

So I ask myself, If I mask the health
Will I be so wrong if I blast myself
The plight to be indeed I pass the shell
Knowing its my own fault that I bask in hell
It can change right? Well I don't know
Many trials in denial that I don't show
Even though it's hard and I see regards
Its like the world will applause when I fall to my flaws
So I hate what I'm facin', hate what I'm pacin'
Fate to negate, yo I hate what I'm placin'
In to my heart where the climate's dark
Raging sparks and that's when the violence starts
I wanna see resolve, be evolved
With these demons involve can I bleed them all?
Will I lose myself in the fight of the pain?
All these storms in my mind will I drown in the rain?

Feel my life is changing everywhere I go
Drink away the pain in, I just need to know
Bound here forever
Will I be astounded or drown in the weather?
Will I make it right? Will I lose the fight?
Tell me will I fall down? Will I ever see the light?

If I keep the faith in mind I should just be fine
I proceed to find all that intertwines
How the stars align, stay in crystalline
Moving supine how I breathe my rhyme
I gotta get right in my sight pray to go on
But plight that I fight's hard to hold on
Hard to row on, tend to relive
In the past so I ask can I be sieved
Step outside and bask in the dark
That's the only time that I ever see my heart
Feel the part where I peel apart
Where the zeal departs, is it really art?
I don't know no more swear I need to find
Pray every day for a peace of mind
Feel in my veins how I reach decline
Fade away all I say is I
I think I need a minute

Feel my life is changing
Everywhere I go
Drink away the pain in
Lately I'm fading
Feel my life fading