MACKAVON - Lord Knows Lyrics

Lord knows, lord knows my nigga, lord knows
Shit changed my nigga, lord knows
Ayy, yuh, ayy, yuh

Look, I grew up silent, stayed to myself
The more I stayed out of trouble the more I lost myself
They never offered help, rather push me off the shelf
Declining in health, my mama losing herself
I couldn't give a damn bout what shady saying 'bout me
Dog, swear to God they throwing shade but steady wearing camouflage
I ain't charged up nigga, but you could catch a charge
I got more ammo in case you wanna sabotage
My papa was a soldier only wore a lot of camouflage
You think I'm playing, well, you probably just see a mirage
Cause I ain't on no bullshit, I'ma snap at y'all
People that talk behind your back, man, that's immature
And Lord knows I ain't got no time for that
I was always on my grown shit so I better get some shine for that
We used to crack on you so we better get a line for that
My response is you wasting my time so give me time for that
But who am I to judge these lame ass niggas
Got more shit to worry bout, like getting figures
You lose your soul to it if you never had the figures
If you ask me though, that's only the square ass niggas
Yeah, so I put my soul in this rap shit
Take a peek into my life a life too tragic
You take a shot at me, my response is automatic
Don't talk shit if you never ever had it
Or better yet if you always seem to have it
Never used to stunt but now stunting is a habit
Turn a normal fan into a fanatic
Skeletons in my closet and birds in the attic
But I'ma rattle your cage if you try to pick my brain
I told myself this year that I ain't playing no games
Last year was just the start, I'ma cop me a new chain
Next step is a nice whip, new slave to the big change
Put myself up on a level that they couldn't match
I guess I had to face the facts, there's always a catch
But scratch that my feelings are starting to detach
Had no way of knowing if these people have my back
I could never handle that, maybe I'm just over matched
No, scratch that, I think I'm just a catch
They fishing around but they gotta face the facts
I'm on my own shit so put away the contracts
Mama's still going through it, she still missing pops
Wish that could change but right now I'm all she's got
It's been that way ever since I lost my pops
And ever since I been rhyming tryna reach my pops
Cause Lord knows I never had a chance to say my thoughts
I stay up every night, mind buzzing with these thoughts
I know I'm lost but what am I gon' stumble 'cross?
Used to get double crossed but now I'm such a boss

Lord knows my nigga, lord knows
Shit changed my nigga, lord knows
Shit changed my nigga, lord knows
Ayy, yuh, ayy, yuh