Mancia - Left Hand Lyrics

I used to have to depend on them both
But I had to cut the left when he hurt me most
I used to puff the chest when pride had to boast
But I had to cut the sin in me
It came right before my fall
And it tried to take all that was precious to me
I attempted to grasp it all
But he had other plans for me
What I wouldn't see
Was his belief in me
Was not based in his dreams for me
It was dependent on his name solely
So Holy holy holy
I need to depend on you only
Growing me to be your mouth piece
But my addictions have really cost me
I'm not talking about the drugs and drink
I'm talking bout the pride and lust that holds me by the teeth
The lack of shame that should have brought me to my knees
The envy and wrath that hit me just like a disease
But I can't look past myself
Faced with a mirror yet can't see that I need help
Needing a shoulder to lean on, but refusing to seek someone else
A surgeon to remove the necrosis
Dying skin and blackened flesh
While I've sat in lies atrocious
Just talking about it makes me wanna die
Die to self, remove the welts
Not talking suicide
But to brutalize
The hurt and pain that's deep inside
Enough to realize
That I'm sick inside
I need my mind to defy
The voices inside it
That say if I'm quiet
I'll recieve my prizes
And if I'm outstanding
I'll put a spotlight on all my vices
But I won't stop despite this
I know that my soul laid
In prostrate
With a touch like midas
He'll turn to gold the soul of all those who are most lifeless
So if I'm vulnerable
I'll die most honorable
Into his likeness
And I'm ready to heal this disease
On my knees
Until this flesh is lifeless
Until this flesh is lifeless
I used to have to depend on them both
But I had to cut the left when he hurt me most
I used to puff the chest when pride had to boast
But I had to cut the sin in me
Bring on the indictment
Bring on the pain
Bring your worst to the table, cuz I'm not going insane
I'll decree right now I have my eyes to the heavens
I'll bet it all on the seven
12 tribes who dominate nations
Blessing to the 4th generations
Cuz I rebuke the curses of earthly patrons
But it will be on Gods time so please have patience
Cuz time prepared is not time wasted
Let just face it
You cannot do it yourself
Times of the essence
We live in the present
Don't stay in the past of your worst creations
Get up now, while your strength is rested
He won't give up on darkest cases
He lifts you up when you think you can't face it
When you can't face it
The proof is abundant
It all sounds redundant
To reject his name
So I'll cut what's rampant
Dead and abandoned
Til he completes my change
There's no reason to lie
I'm not about myself
I bout my wife and kids
And to finally die to self
So I'll take on all the risk
Won't look to no one else
I'll cut off my left hand, without a single plan
So it won't spread no where else
Because My sin is my disease
And you came to heal after I finally prayed on my knees
I used to have to depend on them both
But I had to cut the left when he hurt me most
I used to puff the chest when pride had to boast
But I had to cut the sin in me