A lot of my exes look the same
I kept making the same mistake
I used to sit down waiting for things to change
But things never changed
Because i never changed
I was in the smallest room in my mums house
Looking for space
I'd just stare into space
I think i need to escape
The feeling that i'm going to get stuck here wouldn't go away
I had a lot of dar energy around me that i couldn't explain
I didn't want to be saved,
I woke up late
I didn't know myself,Only knew my name
They seem to think tat they know my heart
Just because they all know my face
I had no foresight, i had no faith
I had no focus,I had no way
To get out all these things that i was thinking
I was struggling to find my way
Ending my texts with,Cool & safe
But i never felt cool or safe
Questions all the calls i made
My purpose needs to get reclaimed
I just want some peace in my head
Pieces of me started feeling strange
I felt like nobody else has felt like this
I became a person i hate
So i'm laying here awake
Getting money & i'm pissing it away
Some days that i wish i wouldn't wake
What's it gonna take
Feel like i'm living on the edge
Got thoughts that i know i shouldn't say
Its happening again
Sitting here & feeling so alone
In reality it never was the case
I'm digging my own grave
Really i'm just troubling myself
Been battling with my own brain
I felt like i died, at least one or two times
Old versions of me that i don't recognise
I watch day turn to night
I know im the cause of my own demise
I don't take my own advice
Watch things get worse so its no surprise
Sat & i smiles when im supposed to cry
I need to make it out alive
Things wasn't going right's so i wrote
I set a few goals & let go of my ego
Worked for the ting, There wasn't a cheat code
Me against the world i'm giving out free smoke
Oh
I started seeing the results
Different type of bruddah i started t evolve
New energy new me
I started all again like i'm getting a reload
Things are going to be what they will be
Finally got back to the real me
Had so much baggage on my back
But i dropped them bags like a spent a few g's
Devil in my head i couldn't let it kill me
Madness in my head so i couldnt feel free
I'm rich in spirit & soul