Dear Future Me III Video (MV)

I've written twice now and still not received no answers
Beginning to question whether or not this actually matters
Maybe you want me to grow and learn as I battle
But I'm just a flame on the end of an already faded candle woo
I wonder did we die
Is that why I'm not getting replies?
Did we lose to our thoughts inside?
Maybe I'm writing to someone who's dead
Maybe that person is gone in the head
Maybe the future for me should stay unread
I know that you mean well
But I only ask when I need help
Man I never thought that I would be the person who let me down
Guess my life isn't what it is now?
Look, are we still tryna find those highs through a scroll on the phone?
Do we still tell ourself this lie, and keep on hitting these lows?
Maybe this time it will be different but I already know
It doesn't get better stuck in a rut and I'm losing hope yeah
I look up to God and give him the blame
Look at your son he needs to be saved
I'm yelling at him even though they're my mistakes
Cause I cannot go with this pain
Cause I cannot carry these chains
Cause I cannot bear all this weight
Cause I cannot carry on living this way
I feel like I'm going insane
The devil has led me astray
I know he be working cause heaven is missing my name woo
Maybe I need to start listening using my heart when I pray
Speaking of prayer how many times I kneel and say
Lord I'm sorry, I'm tryna be good, I'm tryna be better
I'm tryna be honest I know that I should Oh God
To my future me, what does our future really mean?
I'm asking this over and over I hope you are listening
Dear my future me, do the people around who say that they care believe?
Lately feeling doubtful maybe it's me yeah
Alone in my room writing until all this negative energy leaves
Got me thinking, what do you mean to me?
That's me in phases most time don't wanna see too many faces
Being alone is where I be feeling safest
Dear my future me, I'm writing these letters so when you respond you can help others see yeah