Pain Stream Video (MV)

Painstream, painstream
Painstream, painstream
Painstream, painstream
Painstream, yeah, yeah
Waiting for a crack in them doors, they wasn't opening
Cold in my feels around this time, don't like this kind of wind
Remind me of that time when bro had locked me outside the door
And I ran to duck my head down on the porch cause they was spinning
Or when I was lookin' down at that barrel in the park
Wasn't too sure if it was life or death next mines was pending
Or about that day when I seen John laid in his casket
His last time getting in bed, his smile was fake, was wearing linen
Meanwhile I'm in my bed not getting rest but yes I'm chilling with different women
Escaping void, and avoiding my feelings
Maya asked me for a date again, my feelings in the way
Our last date we went on was our last, I told her keep the change
Stuck in my ways from time to time
Around that time I couldn't change my mind
But today I plan on chilling with Drayman and little Don
Tomorrow God willing I'll go kick it with Jace-Face and his mom
Family time, the kind that's worth ticking for me now
My way of getting off the floor is me amending with the ground
If you know like I know work your way up, they won't pass it down
Tryna up my credit history to get Beans out of town
In a house where she can get some rest, good sleep, good reclining
It feels like fresh air outside of Philly
I hate that I had picked up certain calls because reality had chimed in
I'm answering these jail calls free Willy
I hate that these feelings be so traumatic when it's chilly
My loved ones call me dramatic whenever they don't feel me
I started relying on some bad habits to heal me
Constantly tearing my aura apart, kept living filthy
God assigned me to change my ways, it still ain't get completed
Bi-polar weather inside me, I'm cold, next thing I'm heated
The things we have won't vanish fast as long as we don't cheat it
Me saying yes to everyone had my pockets depleted
I was grieving, wasn't no presidents in my hand all them late nights when I was counting my dead friends
Paths they ain't want me to lead, I told folks go ahead then
Bro keep seeing red, I pray one day he cleans off his lens
God gather my thoughts, picture all this written in red pen
No one else waited for me to try again, but God did
I got impatient, start questioning, asking who God is
Ungrateful like He's not the one opening my eyelids
He gave me a chance to help out Beanie and my mom kids
Hurting for my mother's son to get us through we smile and bid
Sometimes I wish I could break them years down that they tryna give
Knowing we all got 24 hours and that time his
He asked how I'm doing out here, surviving but I'm
They calling me Beanie baby, but they don't know who my mom is
She praying I see the next chapter, hopefully God page me
The man above said they won't take me, my request was him to save me
They know that I'm locking in, I touch on my notes daily
They might tell you I hit the lab bummy but won't say I'm lazy I work hardly
This your first time hearing me out, hey there, my name is Marti
Put me up there with Kanye and Andre, the life of the party
No one told me when I charge it to the game that it would charge me
I asked bro what was his drive, it's like his ride was never starting
The right connections got me jumping like cables, life started sparking
Came from different paths that ended in the same route, Atari
I watched good news turn bad news all from imparting
That's when life started to darken
Won't get into it if you got that take it as a warning
I'm with the half-hearted kids, we came from loving wholeheartedly
We was in that rain alone until we started brainstorming
Painstream, why my music not gettin' charted
Painstream, and I'm the artist
Painstream, yeah, yeah, yeah
Painstream, painstream
Painstream, painstream
Yeah, yeah