I can't say no
I am not ready to be on my own
With time on my side
It is not easy for me to let go
So I've turned my back on all of the voices
That sang to me sweetly when I wouldn't listen
I go to bed early, I still say I love you
But I don't make time for my friends and I miss them
Isn't it sweet
To shower the world with the things you believe
But if you stay home
They'll speak your mind for you and they'll do it for free
But I can tell stories, I can think deeply
Of people and places and things that won't happen
I've spent my twenties drinking and laughing
And making excuses for why I'm not happy
And I don't know why you can't see
You are history to me
A moment of something in someone else's memory
My father said
Don't isolate yourself from people who love you
And my mother said
Never lose sight of all the angels above you
So I watch the clouds that go by oh so slowly
Like beautiful paintings I've seen in museums
I leave my apartment, go down to the water
I think of my friends and make plans to go see them
I don't know why you won't see
You are history to me
A moment of something in someone else's memory
I don't know why you won't see
You're just history to me
A story of no one that I will never read
Isn't it weird
To come out unscathed from the thing you most feared
To find you've survived
Against all the odds you're still intact and alive