Yeah
I've been out of my head and shit
Losing my f*cking idols and shit
At a loss for words over this
At times I question if I even want to exist
What's the point of it all, am I even happy
(Am I?)
What's the point of existing just to exist
I guess everything matters until it doesnt
(Does it)
(Does it)
(Does it)
(Does it)
One day we all got to fade
Fade into the grave
I've been thinking a lot about death
And what it means
Why where we born just so we could die
Everything I ever read was probably just a lie
Reading the Old Testament makes me seem like a pestilent
A sinner at heart with a mind full of messages
Incoming and outgoing what's the real message in it
Struggling to find the lesson in it
Yeah
What's The lesson in it
Yeah
Is there a lesson in it?
Yeah
What if there isn't one and this is all just a game
What if someone's sitting back controlling us through a screen
What if everything I thought I knew was just fake
What if all this is nothing but a bad dream
I've had worse than this, that's all I could say
Maybe tomorrow I'll get to live to dream another day
Maybe not tho
Maybe it'll be my time to go
Well if it is, I'll awake from my dream state
And if I do then...
Maybe this whole time I've been wrong
Maybe I'm already there
Caught in between heaven and hell
Fog surrounds and nothings clear
But your there
Here with me
Over there
Every where I turn
I haven't grazed you since I was a kid
Stuck on me, you said you won't lose me again
But I was the one that lost you
All happiness vanished
And I Stuck to my ceilings
Spinning and spinning
I went in circles
Chasing myself until my face turned purple
I found beauty in the darkness
Most people it swallows whole