THE HARDEST THING Video (MV)

I still can't believe it
'Cause everything in me thought you were the one
And we had our problems just like everybody does
But I believed it was love, and that's why we kept going, yeah
Everything piled up until you had enough, I guess
And then you were gone
A mistake never made someone leave my life like you decided to
So, it was hard moving on, man
I'll just say it, I made a decision
I struggled with things, I'm ashamed to admit it
I wrote a whole song 'bout myself and those sins
If you need a reminder, go listen to it
But you already knew 'bout that trauma
You saw me cry as I told you 'bout all that I did
That night in your car, looked me dead in the eye
Told me it was alright and you'd stay 'til the end
The words that are burned in my head are the
Ones you'd be next to my side 'til we're grey and we're older
Fast forward, months later, across from that table
I look in your eyes, and they're saying it's over
And hearing you say you don't trust me no more
Hit me harder than anything ever before
That's a memory I wish that I could forget
But I can't, I just try to ignore it
Your greatest fear, it became my reality
Having to deal with the pain of someone who you
Gave all your love and affection to choosing to give it up
Feels like your losing yourself
I'm ashamed of the way that I acted because of the pain that I felt
And I'm sorry for what I did as a result of it
Scared you to death
I just want you to know I was going through hell
If love never fails, then tell me, please, what was that?
After all we felt, I just can't see why it had
To end like that and hurt so bad
And make me act so dumb
Just know, that letting you go was the hardest thing I've ever done
I don't know if you know this, but incase you don't
Man, I went to a dark place
What I didn't expect was for it to lead me to
Some of my hardest and worst days
I could go on for hours and hours
And try to explain all the hurt and ungodly pain
But instead I'ma give you a glimpse inside this mind of mine
That thought I had lost everything, yeah
It's crazy how pain has its own way of changing you
Into someone that you're not
I went from the happiest person on earth
To constantly having suicidal thoughts
And I passed you one night
Thought about pushing the gas and just landing wherever
Thought it might be better for everyone if I was gone
But I thank God each day that Mom answered that call
It was a really hard couple of months
Remember us talking 'bout tying the knot?
And you taking my last name? I guess plans change
You could say that the Lord really taught me
Not to get caught in all of the wrong things
Especially those that are leading me
From being all that I could be and not bringing
Me any closer to God, man
I'm scared about falling in love again
Learning to trust again, doing too much again
Then it all being for nothing and just blowing up again
Then overthinking whether I'm enough again
I lost my mind over someone who didn't mind losing me
But it was worth it, 'cause it led me here
Closer to God than I've ever been
Some days I just still can't believe it though
If love never fails, then tell me, please, what was that?
After all we felt, I just can't see why it had
To end like that and hurt so bad
And make me act so dumb
Just know, that letting you go was the hardest thing I've ever done
Despite all the hurt that we caused for each other
I don't regret all that we had
I regret how I acted afterwards
It was uncalled for, and I'm sorry for that
But letting go of you meant letting go of part of me
And that was incredibly hard
I was hurting, and I wanted you to see it
That's the really ugly part
I'm still not sure if love is what it really was
Or just simply lust
Or if we got together, yeah, just because
It's confusing, huh? But what's done is done
But I pray for you, hope you find love again
Hope you're pursuing the Lord every chance you get
Hope that you're able one day to forgive all my faults
And I hope that you know that I wish you the best