First they told me it's okay, then they told me to give up
Then they told me it's a game, so I told 'em to get f*cked
Started noticing my name and then with holding all their love
But my focus hasn't changed, trying to show them I'm above
All the hate and judgement now, call the play and run around
All the rain is coming down from all the greatest thunder clouds
Brain storm, competition wonders how
I rose up from the dust and found myself within this rugged sound
Hip hop, a love and hate relationship
Sick of all these rappers bunch of actors in a basement with
The same dream I built and now I'm facing it
I don't even want it, once I got myself a taste of it
A crazy switch, focus on the love I give
Pulling up my pants, straightened hat, got a couple kids
I wonder, if my music's ever gunna hit
It's there for when I'm gone till then I'm tellin' everybody this
It's okay, it's alright, i'm feeling fine
So much stuff is on my mind, feels like living in a lie
Can't change, by myself, 'cause it's hurting all the time
Before I cry my heart out I will just give it a smile
It's okay, it's alright, i'm feeling fine
So much stuff is on my mind, feels like living in a lie
Can't change, by myself, 'cause it's hurting all the time
Before I cry my heart out I will just give it a smile
First they told me it's alright, then told me to f*ck off
Since then it's all the time, just f*cking up my thoughts
My memories are chaos, can't tame them on my own
Doesn't feel like growing up, more like walking over stones, going
On, on for years, and I
Thought I will here, get
Along with my fears, but it
All disappeared
I'm back to using fake smiles
From a.m. til it's late night
Emotions? Yeah, I hate mine
Digging deep, what I may find, I
Stay tight to friends and fam, and
They might get anxious when, in
Day time, hate flies
And takes my both hands as well
I found those demons in my head
Feeling so depressed, understanding clearly what they said
And it's making me a mess, but I can't show that
I try to run away, but I can't left
Please tell me where is hope, did she see my dreams
To the bottom of the glass is as far as I can see
It's okay, it's alright, i'm feeling fine
So much stuff is on my mind, feels like living in a lie
Can't change, by myself, 'cause it's hurting all the time
Before I cry my heart out I will just give it a smile
It's okay, it's alright, i'm feeling fine
So much stuff is on my mind, feels like living in a lie
Can't change, by myself, 'cause it's hurting all the time
Before I cry my heart out I will just give it a smile