You had a face like lust and innocence had it out to a draw
A taste for all things antique in love, stories and faith
None of which I could keep; you broke them all in me
And I can't keep out of my mind
How pulling you from the floor
And your puddle of spilled wine
Turned a human gesture into a soft grind
Or that night we hopped bars in the heart of the city
Last call rang out like church bells of holy pity
You held your head in my lap that whole ride home
And I had no hope that night I'd call you my own
But you straddled me on your back porch fire pit
And I leaned in for a kiss
You said, "Don't do this if you don't wanna ruin this not friendship
Cause that's never what this is, that's never what this is"
But I did
It is what it is
But my wife called your room mate at 5AM
And I knew I'd only half lived and I'd never live again
And I can't keep out of my mind
How blinding these powers of mine
To bind any conscience till after the fact
The impluse, the delusion, the act