Inside Video (MV)

I just wanna die on the inside I don't know why
I don't try to escape yeah
Everything at home fell apart now my heart just
Feels like it's starting to break yeah
I just wanna drown in the sound of my sorrow
Now it gets loud in this cage yeah
I been going through it everyday as of late and
I don't really know what to say yeah

Feeling like life's on repeat every week
I just say what I think now I'm stuck (now I'm stuck)
I don't know why do I drink when I see
That my sadness is deep what the f*ck? (what the f*ck)
I just wanna find some peace when I sleep
It seems that I'm chasing a buzz yeah
I let out a sigh my breathing is weak
They say that I'm making it up (why)
I been tryna move up out the place that I been living in
But music is the dream and imma do it 'til I die ('til I die)
I can feel the pressure of the world it's on my back
Now I'm up against the wall tryna make it through alive (through alive)
Running from anxiety until I get depressed don't ask
How I'm doing imma tell you that I'm fine (that I'm fine)
Don't know how to bring it up and don't know who to talk to
So now only write about what's bottled up inside

I just wanna die on the inside I don't know why
I don't try to escape (imma try)
Everything at home fell apart now my heart just
Feels like it's starting to break (boutta break)
I just wanna drown in the sound of my sorrow
Now it gets loud in this cage (it gets loud)
I been going through it everyday as of late and
I don't really know what to say (what to say)

I don't know why do I run
It feels like the time it might finally come (now it's here)
Weed that's inside of the blunt
Get the lighter and then I be lighting it up (light it)
I don't feel like it's enough
I write these rhymes and I hide from the sun (hiding)
I been in my mind don't mind me
I don't wanna find out why I been numb (why)
I don't have a way that I could run away from fear
So I always keep it near will I face it? It depends
Brought it up once and they said that I was weird
Now I'm lookin at my peers trying to see if there's a friend
When I wake up do drugs get drunk then
I'm going back to my bed yeah
I just saved up for a whole damn month and
Still I can't pick up my meds yeah

I just wanna die on the inside I don't know why
I don't try to escape (imma try)
Everything at home fell apart now my heart just
Feels like it's starting to break (boutta break)
I just wanna drown in the sound of my sorrow
Now it gets loud in this cage (it gets loud)
I been going through it everyday as of late and
I don't really know what to say (what to say)

Inside of my mind I been riding this high to decide if it's right
I find it's a lie I hide from the pain I feel in my side
But it never goes away I'm just biting my time
I won't ever talk to a doctor cuz when they walk in
They'll just say that I'll die (that I'll die)
I got pain in my stomach when I'm working
It hurts and I probably couldn't say why
So tell me what I really have left to accomplish
Gotta get it all out 'fore I hit the coffin
I'm asking myself "Will I make it?" it's nauseous
I'm lost in my conscience it's constantly toxic
I hop out my mind and I'm awfully cautious
I wanna go back but I'll die if I'm locked in
I cannot get out of these clouds that I'm caught in
So I don't know why I have so many options

I just wanna die on the inside I don't know why
I don't try to escape yeah
Everything at home fell apart now my heart just
Feels like it's starting to break