Pain Video (MV)

Wish that I could deal with this pain now
I don't even know what I should say now
Lately I don't even feel at home, yeah
Really I just want to get away now
Wish that I could deal with this pain now
I don't even know what I should say now
Lately I don't even feel at home, yeah
Really I just want to get away now
It's crazy that you think of me as great as you do
When you don't even know the half of it I hate that it's true
I wanna tell you everything the time will come
But for now imma say that I'm finally done
Done being mad at you for dumb shit
Done talking to you like I run shit
And I know that I'm f*cked up it makes you believe
That your problems are normal I promise it's me
I don't wanna be here to watch you fall
I swear I really wanna be here to watch you ball
Cuz you're so damn young got a lot of talent
Could be better than me and that's not a challenge
I just wanna help you and find a balance
It's gonna take time we can climb the ladders
Maybe we can do this together
You're my brother, I love you, forever, yeah
Wish that I could deal with this pain now
I don't even know what I should say now
Lately I don't even feel at home, yeah
Really I just want to get away now
Wish that I could deal with this pain now
I don't even know what I should say now
Lately I don't even feel at home, yeah
Really I just want to get away now
I wish that you would listen to our Mom and Dad
Because they learned it from me I can promise that
When I was young I was dumb and they had to learn
How to teach a little kid how to find his worth
Really we're the same but the times have turned
Imma tell you how let me find the words
We just wanna win that's a given
Yeah but I don't wanna lose thats the difference
See I been workin night after night after night
Just to give you a life that I wish that I had
I wish I was spoiled I wish I could brag
I wish that my Mom fell in love with my Dad
But it's probably for the best that she didn't
She gave us the life that were living
And your Dad is like 10x the Dad that I had so it's better for us I'll admit it, yeah
Wish that I could deal with this pain now
I don't even know what I should say now
Lately I don't even feel at home, yeah
Really I just want to get away now
Wish that I could deal with this pain now
I don't even know what I should say now
Lately I don't even feel at home, yeah
Really I just want to get away now
I don't wanna move out and leave you behind
But I need to be free for the peace of my mind
I need to see what it means to be happy
And lately that's rapping
Lately it's drowning in self observation
Yeah, and practicing patience
Searching for peace is depressing
It's draining me leaving me vacant, yea
I wish that you knew how much better you had it than me
I wish you could see
Your parents had you when they're ready but I know
Our mom wasn't ready for me, yeah
Wish that I could deal with this pain now
I don't even know what I should say now
Lately I don't even feel at home, yeah
Really I just want to get away now