MEARA - Idiot Lyrics

I'm falling to pieces, without a good reason
I try and try to brush it off, but I can't be your afterthought
I'm never speechless, but I can't believe this
And no, I never wanted to, but helplessly, I followed you
Round and around 'til I ran out of road
I know that's the sound of my losing all hope
I feel like an idiot, dressing all nice
Just to sit scrolling through the internet, and I
Never get sick of it, watching you smile
While you ignore me for your better friends, and I
Wanna believe that time will erase it
But I couldn't change it
Now I have to live with it
I feel like an idiot
I'm hardly standing, we can't have that, can we
It's hard to be a work of art while trying not to fall apart
World-class at planning, I cushioned the landing
But we still crash into the earth, I really wish that this was worth
Calling and calling when no one was home
Desperately hoping you'll pick up the phone
I feel like an idiot, dressing all nice
Just to sit scrolling through the internet, and I
Never get sick of it, watching you smile
While you ignore me for your better friends, and I
Can't help but see, I watch you not watching
Your hands in your pockets
The graceful recipient
I feel like an idiot
Ah-ooh, ah-ooh, ah-ooh, ah-ooh
And I keep
Writing
The same exact song time and damn time again
Because I need
Something
To make me feel like I'm not stuck in my head
I sing ooh, I'm not an idiot
I see you rolling your eyes and it's
True, I'm getting sick of it
Cursing that I can't disguise that
I feel like an idiot, dressing all nice
Just to sit scrolling through the internet, and I
Never get sick of it, watching you smile
While you ignore me for your better friends, and I
Lost all my sleep, combing the crime scene
Without realizing
The answer's the simplest
That I'm not the idiot
But you
Ah
Oh, ooh
Ah
Ah-ooh, ah-ooh, ah-ooh, ah-ooh