Lookin back on a whole lot between you and me (Yea)
Lookin' back on a whole lot
Lotta things I could've done different
Lotta times I should've listened
But screw that, I'm done wishin'
Wishin' I could be the perfect one
Wishin' that I really had someone
Spiral down way too deep, to the point everything hurts a lot
Me and moms really going thru it
Swear to God, I didn't mean to do it
Love her even though we arguing almost everyday, and it's not improving
And lil' bro really needs help
Blame me cause I'm not around
Hopefully he sees one day, cause I'm tryna be one of the hottest out
And pops really wanna toss me out
We don't even really talk a lot
Never bother to explain things, me and TJ had to start a plot
Feelin' down cause I lacked engagement
Realized I was lackin' patience
Took it back to the drawing board
Said okay, now it's back to basics
Had to get myself off the pavement
Ain't nobody here to lift me up
And shawty got me going insane, I was always there for a pick me up
Got me feeling like I ain't do the most
Whatever though, know what I'm worth
Middle finger to the whole world
I'mma get mine, and I'm gettin' close
Being on top, is never easy
Easy, believe me
Running around the block, from demons
The demons, tryna deceive me
Doing your best to get in my head
Kill me once, I'll raise up from the dead
And between you and me, promise I will be the last one standing
Holding on, cause I'm losing faith in what I have
Getting high fore' I go to bed, so I don't sleep sad
And I been holdin' it down
You had a broken heart that I pieced together
Yeah I swear to God, really need you
So tell me is it gon' be forever
But I'm afraid that I want you, and you're still in love with another dude
Never really like to bring it up, cause I know the topic really kills the mood
Make it clear, are you playing with me
Cause I'm out here claiming you
Don't have me look foolish, cause you know this is irreplaceable
Pen on my page, finna let it glisten
Swear I'm always reminiscin'
Girl I pray we ain't driftin'
And I could never play with these women
So indecisive when it comes to you
Always got me feeling so uncomfortable
Got other things that need attention
No clue what I'm trippin' on
Don't slow down, pick the pace up
With certain people I fall back
Mentally, y'all hinder me
Not in the mood to hit y'all back
Clocked in, and I lock in
Don't hold me back, just hold me down
Act right, or get left back
Ain't losing over no setback
And that's real
Being on top, is never easy
Easy, believe me
Running around the block, from demons
The demons, tryna deceive me
Doing your best to get in my head
Kill me once, I'll raise up from the dead
And between you and me, promise I will be the last one standing