I can't stand the empty feeling when I'm alone
Honestly all I want is a f*cking place to call my home
Somewhere I can clear my mind and get in my zone
A house so peaceful I never gotta change my tone
Unless it's for this f*cking microphone
So I can murder my foes tryna knock me off my throne
You're all cowards with no backbone, just throwin' stones
You motherf*ckers know nothing about the roads I've roamed
This whole time I've been on this journey I've been on my own in a cyclone
It feels like where my heart should be there's an empty space
When I look in the mirror I don't recognize my face
I'm tired of happiness being something I can't trace
I feel like it's f*cking pointless, but they say that's not the case
Why do I base my worth on the items I chase
When will I realize my life is bigger than me?
If I commit suicide I'm only hurting my family
Then what kind of man would I be?
But still I can't talk to anyone cause they don't want my negativity
Odin why do I play life on the hardest difficulty?
Maybe I'm just a loser, time to accept reality
Hopefully after this song you muhf*ckas will see
That I'm f*ckin' broken so I'ma keep smokin' until I can't f*cking breathe
Suicidal thoughts entering my brain
I don't even wanna wake up for the day
I just wish that all this pain would fade away
No erasing this pain
I'm putting my heart on display
Shouldn't say the things I say
Wish I didn't feel this way
To my family I love you, I'm sorry I couldn't stay
I'm supposed to be famous
I'm not so I wanna blow myself brainless
I feel like this is my goodbye letter
I tried everything, but my life never got better
Honestly I feel this way cause I hate myself
It's not fair to my family when all they try to do is help