Mesh - poison Lyrics

I knew she was poison from the start
But I still opened up my silly little heart
Let her kiss me with the lips stained red
Now I'm sitting up alone in bed
It's 2 am I'm one shot from blacking out
Arizona on the speakers while I sit in doubt
Lift the bottle to my lips it's a kiss of death
She was poison from the start but I let her in
I'll sit
Here in the silence
While she's out
Dancing in violets
She seems
Like the sweetest alive
But I know
She's got violence inside
Of that soft skin
That mirrors the glitter in her eyes
And the Pinterest
That she uses to disguise
Her intentions
Weren't pure in design
And the words slip off her lips
In a lie
I knew she was poison from the start
But I still opened up my silly little heart
Let her kiss me with the lips stained red
Left me for dead I'm searching for breath
It's 3 am I'm one shot past blacking out
Arizona on the speakers for an hour now
Lift the bottle to my lips was a kiss of death
She was poison from the start cus she let me in
I guess
I'm not a saint
She did pageants
But I'm chasing fame
And I left her
When she needed me most
Was distracted
By the lights leading home
In the night sky
Chasing bright stars I'm alive
In the daytime
Pull her close tell a lie
That I love her
But I'm on stages chasing highs
And I'm smiling but
Still dying inside
I knew she was poison from the start
But I still opened up my silly little heart
Let her kiss me with the lips stained red
Now I'm laying down alone in this bed
It's 4 am I'm one song from blacking out
Arizona on the speakers but I'm drowning now
Lift the mic up to my lips it's a kiss of life
If she was poison from the start why's it feel so right?