I Refuse Video (MV)

Hold up, here we are again
Trying to get ahold of my mind again
I'm in a battle for my thoughts and depressed again
I don't know why this is happening
Something in my mind is against the flow
And I can feel a constant power struggle over my soul
It's like there's two voices and I can't condone
The behavior of my mind that I can't control
My friends keep asking if I'm doing alright
I say I'm fine
That's a lie, I'm trying to survive
Trying to keep my chin up and to pick up the slack
I'm tired of playing a defense I wanna attack
I've had enough of the doubt and enough of the lies
I'm tired of always being so awake at night
So I hope you understand, there's a line in the sand
You wanna come back?
Talk to the hand
I'm done running today
You can't have your way
I'm done hearing all the lies you have to say
This is the fight for my life
So I'll face you tonight
This time
You're not going to prey on me
I'm finally feeling alive for the very first time
I'm finally winning in the war inside my mind
I'm done listening to you
There's nothing left you can do
You try to get at me again but
I refuse
Wanna move but my hands are tied
Why could I never see right through your lies
It's like the part of you has just occupied
The space in my mind where my thoughts reside
Feels like an eternity
Been fighting for the battle for the life of me
Just trying to find the strength to find my inner peace
But it's hard to keep on breathing when your sinking deep
No more with living in the prison that you built to keep me hidden
From the truth that you were spinning all your lies into wisdom
Like a virus in my system trying to kill me while I'm trippin'
So I gotta keep my distance I refuse to be a victim
I've had enough of the stress so I'll rise and I'll fight
I've been over this since you stole my life
It's time to take it back and to find the light
I'm bringing revolution and it starts tonight
I'm done running today
You can't have your way
I'm done hearing all the lies you have to say
This is the fight for my life
So I'll face you tonight
This time
You're not going to prey on me
I'm finally feeling alive for the very first time
I'm finally winning in the war inside my mind
I'm done listening to you
There's nothing left you can do
You try to get at me again but
I refuse
I'm done running today
You can't have your way
I'm done hearing all the lies you have to say
This is the fight for my life
So I'll face you tonight
This time
You're not going to prey on me
I'm finally feeling alive for the very first time
I'm finally winning in the war inside my mind
I'm done listening to you
There's nothing left you can do
You try to get at me again but
I refuse