Between the blinds, I can not stop peeking
Mount Everest, my paranoia peaking
I'm tweaking
Out the window, my eyes scanning, stay seeking any sign of threat, any sign of death
Tired, but can't be fatiguing
Any semblance of safety could be misleading
Alarm system up and I am wired
What's that sound?
Who hit the wire?
All systems full power
That's rhythm for hours
Hit the emergency generators
No one's on the radar, but I know there's infiltrators
Heartbeat is hard and heavy, machine gun in my chest
Bullets rip through my system
Powersurge hurt got me ready to finish them if needed
There's no one there but I can see it
I can feel it
Terrified hooks in my skin and they're about to reel it
So I better seal it, the door, shut
Even friendly face seems warped and strange
People smile, show love I see expressions deranged
Glisten of teeth, sink them into my cheek, rip with your fangs
Do I sound insane?
Am I crazy?
Well maybe
Maybe that's just what they want you to think
They could come in from any angle, left, right, up, down,
What's that sound, getting strangled
Ripped flesh from bone, anyone could be an enemy
All alone, bout to get mangled monumentally
Leaf-strewn trails at the crossing
Strangers up ahead have me pausing
Wonder if I should walk, run, or stop
Will they misunderstand me and call the cops?
Heart drops, stomach knots, legs they stiffen
No your innocence is not a given
What if you are guilty and your mind betrays you?
And every woman you pass has every reason to taze you?
Maybe you owe a debt and soon the pay's due
A public service to capture and slay you
Is the wickedness I fear just projection?
Selfish redirection, deaf, dumb, blind ego protection
Shielding my mind from my own reflection
Fragile like glass, psyche ready to crack
Poison in my heart has me start to retract
From my loved ones
I just want to keep them safe
Gotta get away before it's too late
I don't want to hurt anyone
It's all the same
It never changes
Childhood memories, searching for cameras
Where are my manners?
Looking in closets, digging in hampers, searching for answers
Why shouldn't I be scared?
I'm the one on trial
Cloud of witnesses pouring over my file
Watching, waiting, appraising every move I make, every mistake
Too much at stake, Maybe already too late
Was this just my fate?
I hope that I'm not bothering you
I promise I'm not following you