Bedside Lights Video (MV)

I've never known what it's like Not seeing the light in living life
Only option is getting a knife it Isn't right isn't fair
But imagine not knowing your Dad and Mama didn't have it all upstairs
And step dad's running fingers Through hair sitting in Underwear
Unaware what it's really like for someone to care
Abused and Confused Especially when she had two kids but the baby daddy wasn't there
Unprepared for the weight of the world
She hated herself more than the man who raped her as a girl
I thought for sure if I date her I could save her
But there's some things I just can't cure
Lost because of man's evil nature
I offered a change but she wasn't in favor
She's asking God to take her
I had a plan to be her Rock but she picked paper and razors

I toss and turn in my bed thinking about the words you said
You wish you were dead I thought to give food for thought but you were fed up
I just want you to keep your head up I toss
And turn in my bed thinking about the words you said you wish you were dead
I thought to give food for thought but you were fed up I just want you to keep your head up

Turned out to be our last fight
Used a broken glass cuz there wasn't a knife
Began to threaten this is like her seventh
Time trying to find God but I'm no Reverend
And not to mention her kids in the Next Room
Pretending not to hear us bring up child protection
And what would happen if they stepped in
Attention I couldn't give and for that I'm forever regretting
Getting involved that day I balled not being able to solve her depression
But that's what you get when you're forgetting to address that life is a blessing
Destined for self neglection
Always wrestling with the perception of your own reflection
Purpose remains a question these thoughts can prevent you from resting

I toss and turn in my bed thinking about the words you said
You wish you were dead I thought to give food for thought but you were fed up
I just want you to keep your head up I toss and turn in my bed thinking about the words you said
You wish you were dead I thought to give food for thought but you were fed up
I just want you to keep your head up