I want to wake up
From the rattlesnake nightmare
I've been living
If you could even call this living
Living without you
I betray myself this time of night
Why am I like this?
Maybe it's because I'm too afraid to face
My reality without you
Reality without you
I looked for you in every bottle
And still couldn't find you
I pray for you in downward spirals
I never could figure you out
Never could figure you out
Year after year you drifted away
Off in the distance
Silently adjusting
Your way out of my life
I looked for you in every bottle
And still couldn't find you
My pentagram my holy bible
I never could figure you out
I see you in psychotic daydreams
And still never knew you
You send me into manic upswings
I never could figure you out
Never could figure you out