Misfit - Relapse Lyrics

My head ain't been feeling right for quite some time
Broken heart and pain you left behind
Wish that I could change your mind
And now I'm falling apart please take me back to the start

After all this time seems I can't escape
Sit alone and I wallow back on my mistakes
All the times that we had threw it all away
All the highs that we had back on my estate
And never was the one who would be afraid
Now I'm planning out my death just to hear you pray
She was crying cause she knows that she's gotta let go
In denial never thought that my pain would let show

Hearing voices in my mind and they start to echo
Lost in the storm as I start to let go
Out of my mind coming off the benzos
Only feel alright when I smoke the endo
I woke up and today and I lost my head
Never getting out of bed feel Im better of dead
Feeling so depressed with addition of the stress
Never bother getting dressed stay in bed eternal rest

Every time I see the sky feel a certain sense of dread
Like the colour of a corpse makes me wish that I was dead
Must be seasonal depression feel the f*cker settling in
Gotta go back to the clinic gotta get my medicine
I'm a battle hardened soldier since a kid a veteran
Fighting battles with my demons but I never let them win
Couple Valium and a spliff and now I'm ready to begin
Gotta do this every morning to feel normal in my skin

My head ain't been feeling right for quite some time
Broken heart and pain you left behind
Wish that I could change your mind
And now I'm falling apart please take me back to the start

Seems the road that I walk is where people get hurt
I've been waiting for the time that I get what I deserve
If you see me on the corner you should probably take a swerve
Push me over to the ground kick my face into the curb
I'm just sorry for the pain and the time I made it worse
I'll make up for all the pain when you see me in a hearse
Lower me into the ground as you say your final words
Think the world is better off let me get what I deserve

All alone by myself I don't need nobody either
Create more mental barriers than a caffeinated beaver
Living in a suicidal state of mind
Need some answers but I'm f*cked up nearly all the time
I've been searching for the words just to make it right
It's been keeping me awake I can't sleep at night
Guess I'm tired of it all I don't wanna fight
Reminiscing all the days that are over now

Lost the battle not the war with the demons that I'm facing
Took a lot of pills locked myself inside my basement
Alone all my life and my heart is feeling vacant
Looking in the mirror and I hate my own reflection
My life is a spiral of tragedy
And I think that I've reached my capacity
Now it's hard to embrace the calamity
I'm alone and I'm losing my sanity

My head ain't been feeling right for quite some time
Broken heart and pain you left behind
Wish that I could change your mind
And now I'm falling apart please take me back to the start