blonde Video (MV)

Fought my intuition
So now you get to say it was a
Mutual decision
But even on our best days I'd
Catch you reminiscing
And holding back tears
As you would praise me
You were acting different
And I can understand it but
You know I'm not a villain
I was just upset, my God
I gave you ammunition
And now you get to say
That I was crazy
But I
I always knew she would carry us there
I bit the bullet with sand in my hair
In California where I'm standing still
When she decided
She can and she will
Walking contradiction
Always had to put me in a
Difficult position
Swearing on your life
But what a terrible religion
When we both know the truth about your praying
Loved me on condition
Angry cause you knew it was
A rational suspicion
You hate that I was right about
Your passive disposition
So now it's my fault?
Oh you amaze me
But I
I always knew she would carry us there
I bit the bullet with sand in my hair
In California where I'm standing still
When she decided
She can and she will
'Cause I saw the look in her eye
When no one was watching
Clung to your sentence
She stuck to the sole of your shoe
I knew the second that
I had to rationalize why I felt like a child
That I'd been annihilated
She saw you secure
She knew that she could
She took you right then
She just did it
Again
Blonded imposition
Wasn't it enough that I was
Feeling insufficient?
Now I'm making pleasantries
With my own opposition
I'm losing my mind
And can you blame me?
Cherry wine and linen
Picturing the two of you
Dancing in the kitchen
And honest you look happy so
I promise I'll forgive it,
But, God, I hope you feel
A little sorry
'Cause you
You always knew she would carry us there
I bit the bullet with sand in my hair
In California where I'm standing still
When she decided
She can and she will