Mother Rose - A Better Man Lyrics

I felt the weight of the world on my shoulders
I saw the light in his eyes go out like a flame
On a candle
That was burning bright on a shelf
On a mantel
In a house where nobody lives
What will happen to me if I follow through?
I promised dad I would never get older
I'll never touch another drink in my life
I saw what it did to this family over and over
No, never again
Never again
I'll show
Show my family I could be a better man
A better man
A better man
A better man
But no one believed me
No one believed a word I said
I can't stare up at this ceiling forever
This room is spinning around and around
They come knocking on my door
Like many times before
They want to watch me slip until oblivion
They want to watch me fall until oblivion
Once again
I fall asleep once again
Once again
And everyone's watching me
Watching me sleep
(Pour me another drink, man)
I want to lose control
Just one more drink and I'll be fine
I want to lose control
Of what I've held inside
I want to lose control
I want to lose control
I want to lose control
Of what I've held
Show me something I've never believed in
I want to know that there are things in this life that are f*cking real
I can't hold on to anything anymore
It's over, I'm done
Never again
Never again
I know
All I want is to sink and feel nothing at all