It is only 8pm
Ah, the screams started again
Outside your door guilt and shame
Can't block out the sound of blame
Two people with children
Who can't get rid of them
Family's a word filled with pain
You wish it was never written
If only doors never opened
If screams never reached your face
If only steps never came
To put you back in your place
One day you'll listen
To birds in the mountain
You'll remember when
Fear followed you like a friend
In all corners of your brain
Trapped in a rotten system
You will know then
It was never your blame
You'll feel the pain
Slip between your fingers, in vain
It is only 8pm
I think I will just pretend
It's already 1am, and
Sleep until the day when
My life's in my hands
My room's in my name
Will they want to try and understand
All their pain, all their shame
Don't give it the name of your own children
What triggers explosions when
I am doing all I can
Keep silent until 1am
When I get to dream now and then
Of leaving and never coming back again
Never listen to voices filled with shame
Who want to share the pain with their children
Stuck inside with them
When they can't understand
Who hurt you if not them