Drowning in Rain Video (MV)

Took another shot to easy the pain
This heaviness, you don't know what it weigh
Ain't no joke I'm bout to go insane
Some how out here drowning in the rain
Shouldn't be this hard to just maintain
You don't know what its like to feel this way
I don't like to give that shit a name
Maybe if I don't it go away

Mental health was never on my brain
Growing up they told me it was fake
Ain't no point in goin through the shame
That shit doesn't matter any way
Took some time to heal up I was prayin'
This shit not on me I took the blame
I thought that I wouldn't feel same
I thought there was only room to gain
I don't even like this play, but what's crazy 'bout it is I paid admission
Hydroplaning thru the lane I'm switchin'
I been working, but I can't even say I fixed it
Seem my mind up in the same condition
Got me stuck up in the same position

That's why I took another shot to easy the pain
This heaviness, you don't know what it weigh
Ain't no joke I'm bout to go insane
Some how out here drowning in the rain
Shouldn't be this hard to just maintain
You don't know what its like to feel this way
I don't like to give that shit a name
Maybe if I don't it go away

You ain't keep it 1000, baby girl
I thought that you was gon' stay down for me
Everything that glitters isn't gold but turns out you was never into alchemy
You would never even try to see
My vantage point up on the balcony
Shit is ironic 'cuz you held me down but it turns out it's you that was drowning me
RIP my nigga Jonny Kid, I'm always thinking 'bout you in the backdrop
That was the moment when I understand every thing all in a snap shot
Funny thing is I wasn't surprised
Energy transforms, none of it dies
Mortem coming he ain't need a reason
Death was knocking it was reaper season
First he took my Grandaddy, took my Aunt Helen, and my Uncle Robert
Death he came in form of meth and took my brother Kam'ron life just like a robber
Almost lost my cousin, she in the car when shots was coming out the chopper
Swear I saw a women get kidnapped in front my face and couldn't trust a copper
Went from whips and the chains to the whips
They say history repeat it self and something's never change
Can't trust a politician far as I can throw em
They so hostile, We the lost ones, ain't had no place to call home

That's why I took another shot to easy the pain
This heaviness, you don't know what it weigh
Ain't no joke I'm bout to go insane
Some how out here drowning in the rain
Shouldn't be this hard to just maintain
You don't know what its like to feel this way
I don't like to give that shit a name
Maybe if I don't it go