I Don't Wanna Video (MV)

Drugs don't take the pain away
I don't wanna feel, pour me shots 'till I pass out
And if I get high, I'ma hide out the passenger side
And just fade away, take the pain away
I don't wanna feel

Oh Oooh Oh Ohhh
Oh Oooh Oh Ohhh
Oh Oooh Oh Ohhh
I Don't Wanna Feel

Passenger Side
I numb myself to the feeling of you

Oh Oooh Oh Ohhh
Oh Oooh Oh Ohhh
Oh Oooh Oh Ohhh
I Don't Wanna Feel
*scissors*
I can't do this anymore
I can't do this anymore
I f*cking can't do this anymore

Oh Oooh Oh Ohhh
Oh Oooh Oh Ohhh
Oh Oooh Oh Ohhh
I Don't Wanna Feel

They say you either die a hero
Or live long enough to see yourself become the villain
But listen
I think a lot of us expected me to die this year
But I'm alive
So if the shoe fits

Oh Oooh Oh Ohhh
Oh Oooh Oh Ohhh
Oh Oooh Oh Ohhh
Not At All
Nothin' At, Nothin' At All
Nothin' At, Nothin' At All
I Don't Wanna Feel

When I make it big, I'ma roll up to the grammies and I'll rent a whole row, I can sit the f*ck alone
Dress in all black with two combats boots and a big 'f*ck you' on my grill and in my tone
Walk up to the stage I'ma take that trophy & I'll sell it for the gold, build centres for the poor
Break off every homie with business of they own, 'for I barricade myself with a pistol in my home
I'm gonna do it!

I DONT WANNA FEEL

I don't like the world I'm in
I don't wanna hurt again
I been like a nervous wreck
Brought up by the bourbon, yeah
Chain smoking in between a Heineken and tryna calm my nerves again
I pop another Percocet
*Whoop*
Pop another Percocet
Poppa getting worried 'bout his kid
I just buried my one best friend and now I gotta go bury my own own mom
So don't talk to me 'bout how the world get
F*ck you know 'bout it?
I ain't even twenty yet
I'm high and a degenerate
I'm trying not to feel
I wanna die and I nearly did
Mixing three different white lines
Got the whites of my eyes tryna reel it in
C'mon, Wake Up!
What a time to be livin' in
What a time to be tired of livin' in
I'm sittin' bench side, watchin' shots I didn't attempt
Make careers that shoulda been mine by 26
Shiiiiiit
Shifty past in my Whiskey flask
Life's highway, drunk, with that rear view cracked
I was "Ready to Die"
Blood trickled, mixed with that 5th of Grants
Splashin' in the bath
Hatin' on me, they wish me bad
Praying "lord take him, bring Miller back!"
Listen, I outlived the competition, thinkin' I can live with that
Can you?
This for anyone who thinkin' they should end it
Bet I recognize the feeling when you felt it
Tunnel vision, you can't even send no one message
You don't want be a burden, thinkin' everyone is selfish
And they never gonna let up
Now the pressure in your chest is gettin' heavy by the minute
You know ever since a kid, you never really got a leg up
And your parents f*cked your head up
And you givin' em your best and all you ever get is stepped on
All you ever get is shit on
Why Me?
Thoughts spinning by the minute, admit it
You never really stood a chance in this life
Answer this, right now
Do you value this life?
We could really end it all now, here, tonight
Pow Pow Pow
Never felt like I fit in
Childhood trauma too vivid
F*ck it, I'll play the villain
Let everyone else play the victim
Not All Heroes Wear Capes

Not all heroes wear capes, yeah
Not all heroes wear capes, yeah
Not all heroes wear capes, no
Not all heroes wear capes, yeah
Not all heroes wear capes, yeah
Not all heroes wear capes
Oh oh oh oh

Oh Oooh Oh Ohhh
Oh Oooh Oh Ohhh
Oh Oooh Oh Ohhh
I Don't Wanna Feel

Oh Oooh Oh Ohhh
Oh Oooh Oh Ohhh
Oh Oooh Oh Ohhh
I Don't Wanna Feel