Myxtape - Alone Lyrics

[verse]
Feeling like an only child but not in the way most think/
There ain't really no strong roots when you look beneath the tree.
People just save face while slinging dirt in the streets/
Hard to trust you with my life based on the things that I see.
Everybody shit stink the same but you're convinced yours gold/
Give it to God so I don't give it emotions no no.
Became everything we despised take a shower to cry/
Hoping I wash away the pain and get an natural high.
Self medication don't always work these things feel different/
Got the plan but since it's not yours you don't wanna listen.
In the same proximity yet still live so distant/
Spiritual battle in myself on religion commitment.
Maintaining responsibility and still tryna work/
Messed me up realizing my daughter don't know what's a church.
That's my job under this climate, center I gotta find it/
Filter out the noise, vision to be unblinded.

[hook]
Feel alone alone../
There ain't a soul I could scroll and tap on the phone.
Icon I'm on a few of the plucks/
Thinking what the f*ck.. if it ain't bad ain't no luck. Run a muck.
Every time favors ain't given up../
Chameleon paint job you flip flop trippin n stuff. What..
Makes you think doing them evil deeds will get you light?/
That's not an anvil overheads it's incredibly light.

[verse 2]
I'm not that kind of fried where I'm needing a padded room/
Or the acts of violence that I envision keeps me consumed.
Just let me regulate my emotions at my pace/
Since I give to you.. why so hard to get my grace?
Hamster wheel effect, running in place/
Not much of a stoner but this cone gettin litted today.
Personal pity party how did i get to this place/
Feeling guilty for choosing peace and not caving today.
Boy are you aging away.. stress gave me every grey/
Still trying to refrain from saying shit like "back in my day".
But I'm an unc now baby embrace it cuz hey/
I know niggas dead longer than they been alive, it's cray.
Im a confused Christian/
God why did man make religion so contradictive
Feel like my heart is righteous but my will need bodybuild/
No father figure to console me on a way to feel.
Mama still tryna make sense of all this fa real/
The rest of em be lying too much it's Ill.
So I rely on my understanding that's not the greatest/
Introverted the older I get the more it raises.
Used to love music for passion and not its praises/
Turned the homies up then they kicked me off of their stages.
Inspiration left.. notebook full of blank pages/
Music business let me down too. Lots of fake shit.

[hook]
Feel alone alone../
There ain't a soul I could scroll and tap on the phone.
Icon I'm on a few of the plucks/
Thinking what the f*ck.. if it ain't bad ain't no luck. Run a muck.
Every time favors ain't given up../
Chameleon paint job you flip flop trippin n stuff. What..
Makes you think doing them evil deeds will get you light?/
That's not an anvil overheads it'