Nathan Harms - Wish I Wasn't Me Lyrics

I feel like my life is a waste
I'm a movie on a bookshelf and I feel so out of place
I wanna tell her how I feel but I keep saying, "Not today"
I'm too introverted
Smart but I ain't learning
I told myself not to fall in love again
I'm too quiet, antisocial, and I'm very very thin
Maybe if I talk to people, I could get a girlfriend
Or maybe I will stay the same and have my heart constantly broken
I know the reason I can't fall in love
I can't hold a conversation and you've had enough
I know you've tried to talk to me
And for that I'm sorry
That's just my personality
But it makes me wish I wasn't me
I can't control myself
You always try to talk to me but I go in my shell
I make my own life hell
I act like this is no big deal
Shrug my shoulders and say, "Oh well"
But really I put this deep inside and didn't let it out
Now I let it out
Hate that I only talk to you through the microphone
Maybe if I did it in real life I wouldn't be alone
I live in my mind where there's tons of space to roam
But even there I'm not happy
I need someone to call my own
I know the reason I can't fall in love
I can't hold a conversation and you've had enough
I know you've tried to talk to me
And for that I'm sorry
That's just my personality
But it makes me wish I wasn't me
I'm quiet
I'm shy
I'm quiet
I'm shy
And it's messing with my mind
Wanna give you my time
I want you in my life
And now its too late
I never even said goodbye
I'm quiet
I'm shy
I'm quiet
I'm shy
And it's messing with my mind
Wanna give you my time
I want you in my life
But now its too late
I never even said goodbye
I know the reason I can't fall in love
I can't hold a conversation and you've had enough
I know you've tried to talk to me
And for that I'm sorry
That's just my personality
But it makes me wish I wasn't me
Like I really wish
It feels, seems like the only time that I can actually talk to her is through micro
Through the microphone
Through, through song
But like bro, that
Is that really good enough
Relationships are built on conversation
So if you can't have a conversation with someone then
Then everything's kind of lost
There's no point to it really
I always wanna tell myself not to fall in love
But then every single time
It just, it always happens
Can't stop myself
It's just
I don't know
Makes me feel like everything is lost
I just feel kinda lost
You know
Oh I don't know
I wanna have hope
I wanna
I wanna feel like I can actually have confidence
I want a reason to be confident in myself
But like there's been no reason so far