Nefarious - Homesick (Live) Lyrics

Look
I been tryna find a way back home
Yeah, back to the one and only place I have known
I'm caught at a road, it's too cold and too close
Now I'm in too deep, can someone save my soul, uh
Yo, already on my own
I don't know how to say what I'm thinking
It's taking a toll
All my friends have had enough and now they won't even call me
They won't pick up when the phone rings, uh
Going under, I'm anchored
Not to sink, I'm on my knees and askin' god for a favor
State of mind is always switching, now my life is in danger
This alcohol ain't doin' shit except for fuelin' my anger, damn
I ain't f*ckin' going home today
Mom is sick, dad is workin, always going someplace, yeah
I don't want my family hearin' that I almost put a god damn bullet in my dome today, but
Man, I feel like going home at dark
On a trip, forever scared of all the ghosts I fought
I don't wanna be a problem but I'm drownin' underwater and they god damn wonder why I smoke a lot
F*ck
Look my bones are gettin' weak without rest
And it gets harder to speak with all the weight on my chest
I had a habit since a kid to hide to things in my head
I'm using this as an escape until I can't take a breath so
I ain't f*ckin' going home today
Mom is sick, dad is workin, always going someplace, yeah
I don't want my family hearin' that I almost put a god damn bullet in my dome today, but
Man, I feel like going home at dark
On a trip, forever scared of all the ghosts I fought
I don't wanna be a problem but I'm drownin' underwater and they god damn wonder why I smoke a lot
I had a dream, I was only a freshman
When I started going numb to all the drugs and depression
Getting caught for possession
Wasn't long before the fights and all the f*ckin' detention
I was hated, I was f*ckin' impatient
Dad was in a different country and my mom was a patient
I had to find my own escape to get away from everything cause all the shit was in my head and I was f*ckin' sedated, gone
I ain't f*ckin' going home today
Mom is sick, dad is workin, always going someplace, yeah
I don't want my family hearin' that I almost put a god damn bullet in my dome today, but
Man, I feel like going home at dark
On a trip, forever scared of all the ghosts I fought
I don't wanna be a problem but I'm drownin' underwater and they god damn wonder why I smoke a lot
F*ck
Look my bones are gettin' weak without rest
And it gets harder to speak with all the weight on my chest
I had a habit since a kid to hide to things in my head
I'm using this as an escape until I can't take a breath so
I ain't f*ckin' going home today
No one's home and when they are, they're always going someplace
All the blood and all the tears that I've been sweating out for years
Because I'm god damn losing all control today, but
Man I feel like going home at dark
On a trip, forever scared of all the ghosts I fought
I don't wanna be a problem but I'm drownin' underwater and they god damn wonder why I smoke a lot
I'll admit that I am scared when I wake up alone
I been abandoned for years and now I f*ck up my soul
At this point I'm causing damage cause I don't know how to manage all the voices in my head
So we ain't goin' home, nah
Nah, we ain't goin' home, nah
Nah we ain't goin' home
Cause at this point I'm causing damage cause I don't know how to manage all the voices in my head
So we ain't goin' home, nah