Nenoblaze407 - Addiction Lyrics

This is addiction, why do I bother at all
There's nothing to mention, when nothing has changed
I'd rather be working for something than waiting for the rain
So I wander home to someone else's shame
This is addiction, why do I bother at all
There's nothing to mention, when nothing has changed
I'd rather be working for something than waiting for the rain
So I wander home to someone else's shame
I think it's time that I open up about my addiction
I'm sick of trying and feeling like there is no one listening
Nobody loves, nobody cares, no one who see my vision
I kill the beat with a poetic flow, aim for precision
The drugs killing me slow, I guess I never listen
The music feeding my soul make me want to go and get it
Bleeding from every poke to get them drugs into my system
If you ain't done it, then you don't know, so how could I be tripping
Don't want to die, but I risk my life every time I hit it
Writing this song, I wrote that line and that shit really hit me
Don't want to go, it ain't my time, I ain't fulfill my mission
What would I tell all my brothers and sisters
For the day when I go, and I get put to rest
Never cry for when I die, so does all the stress
Life's a mess, I can attest, alone and depressed
Yeah, a feeling I never express
This is addiction, why do I bother at all
There's nothing to mention, when nothing has changed
I'd rather be working for something than waiting for the rain
So I wander home to someone else's shame
How do I get help when a few times I try to quit
Sober a few months and then I'm back on the shit
Then get arrested, lose it all all over again
Another fall, another call, and I'm back in the pen
I wonder when I'm gone if you miss me
I'm sorry I wasn't stronger than the drugs I let it get me
Was never part of the plan, a nigga falling like I'm tripping
And if you could understand, please, I just need someone to listen
Love yourself, cause if you don't, that's how you get in this position
Shit off like something was missing, but with the music I'm gifted
It helps me to keep on living, the side of me I am giving
To you in hopes that you feel it and be a little more forgiving
To anyone with addiction, it's a disease and it's killing
With a long line of victims, who am I to believe that it won't get em
Shit, or get me
This is addiction, why do I bother at all
There's nothing to mention, when nothing has changed
I'd rather be working for something than waiting for the rain
So I wander home to someone else's shame