It doesn't matter how any times you say I love you
It doesn't matter how many times you say I'm sorry
It doesn't matter how many scars you have on your wrists
It doesn't matter how many times you've been committed
How far into that twelve pack you're in
How many numbers in debt you're in
How many prescriptions you're given
How many diagnosis you're labeled as
Who doesn't like you
Who doesn't love you
Who doesn't respect you
Who doesn't call you
Life is something we're given
Slow down, your time will come
Until then, enjoy the moment
Just f*cking live in it
If my heart would've stopped beating three years ago
Just like I thought I was supposed to go
I'd just be another tattoo on my best friend's skin
My dad's gin and tonic would've done him in
The love of my life would've been holding another girls hand
My mutt would've never a found home
And my mom would've never been able to let me go
1,095 days to say I love you
20 million breaths to take
Countless phone calls to make
8,760 hours of sleep
3,285 meals to eat
Three full summers to vacation
32 million times to blink my eyes
Infinite smiles to shape
Enormous amount of laughter to create
And no song to my name
If I left this world I would've left alone
But at the same time I would've left so much, f*cking, behind
There are many things I wouldn't have known
If I knew exactly how I couldn't have been there for my friends
If I knew that I had the chance to change people's lives
If I knew I would start seeing clearly again
If I knew I would find my passion
If I knew I would fall in love for the first time
If I knew how much I actually meant
I never would've done that
If my heart would've stopped beating three years ago
Like I thought I was supposed to go
I'd just be another tattoo on my best friend's skin
My dad's gin and tonic would've done him in
The love of my life would've been holding another girls hand
My mutt would've never a found home
My mom would've never been able to let me go
That's something I could never swallow
There are many things I question about life
Like how the hell am I still alive
I'm just grateful I still have a life