NG Fresh - Inner Demons Lyrics

I done pulled myself through the anguish and pain
If your ass gonna hate, then you best stay in your lane
Cause I got these inner demons trapped inside of my brain
And if I don't let them go, probably would drive myself insane

These inner demons leave me drained and depleted
And depressing thoughts that I contain get me heated
Addictions hardwired in my brain get repeated
And the repercussions of 'em leave me pained and defeated
Constrained and so weakened, cause I refrained getting treated
My complainin' and pleadin' made me vainly conceited
By sustaining the needless hate ingrained in deep-seeded
Satan succeeded and I gained zero freedom
Take a look back at it, view the full history
Just go back to last year, truly bullshit for me
Almost losin' my moms, coulda been screwed with no job
Always more shit added, the foolishness don't stop
Tryna salvage the broken pieces to my social life
But describing my pain just ain't easy to vocalize
Especially since most of the people I know just ain't know the strife
I don't wanna alienate 'em or leave 'em polarized
Or appearin' cold as ice when I show brutal honesty
Have I ever been hurtful while being truthful, possibly
This awful mindset got me seeking approval constantly
From those who don't give a f*ck or people who ain't fond of me
Guess it's time to flip the shit that's been thrown at me
Cause I figured out that my life ain't shit what it's shown to be
Puttin' my faith in God to watch the shit I can't oversee
And protect me when my demons and spirits just don't agree
With these demons, I'm conjurin' a plan to conquer 'em
With God's help, I hope to f*ck up my damnedest monsters and
I can't do it id I don't get off my ass and do it
Cause these sons of bitches stick around when they're passing through me

I done pulled myself through the anguish and pain
If your ass gonna hate, then you best stay in your lane
Cause I got these inner demons trapped inside of my brain
And if I don't let them go, probably would drive myself insane

Cause I got these inner demons trapped inside of my brain
And if I don't let them go, probably would drive myself insane