Empty Christmas Video (MV)

I've never had to struggle this hard
Today I almost crashed my car
I wondered if anyone would know I'm gone today
This is what I wanted
I chose it this way
So I'm sorry I don't think I'll be home for Christmas

Remember when I dreamed of being a dad
Now I can't remember what I had
With my bloodline I'll might pass on
Whatever made me only sing sad songs
So I'm sorry I might not come home next Christmas

For what it's worth
If I died right now I'd die so full of potential
And if I live would it waste it all away

Take me or leave me
I don't care
But tell me where to find the news
Kiss me or kick me anywhere
I don't care
But help me be prepared to lose

I don't feel like I have the words to say
I write about girls, not much else but am I to blame
I don't feel like I have the voice to sing
Even if I mastered it
I doubt I'd be free
So I'm sorry I doubt I'll ever come back to Christmas

Love me or hate me I don't care
But tell me where
To find the news
Kiss me or kick me anywhere
But help me prepare
To lose