nickwuh - Poison Lyrics

We're all searching for a star
I've taken all this time to come this far
But now I've been taken back to the start
It's always this hard

Can you hear my heartbeat?
Can you hear it pounding through my veins?
I think it's always been there
But now it's driving me insane
Amidst the winter rain
Try to wash the blood stains
Off the walls that I've built
From the glass that I've spilled

Poison, is it what I am?
Have I always been this
I couldn't notice
Poison is what I've been
Leeching off of everything around me

I've given up on finding stars
It's a waste of time I waste my mind on
And I keep losing my voice, screaming at the walls to find
What I wanted in life

It's the poison in my veins
It's rotting the inner walls of what I am
Where I've always been
I'm caving in, I'm caving in
So don't get too close to me. you'll lose your f*cking sanity
Bend and break to fix me, but you'll realize I'm broken by design
And you'll waste your time, and I'll lose my mind
Trying to find a way to fix this too, but I know the issue
Is with me, and not you

Poison, is it what I am
Have I always been this
I couldn't notice
Poison is what I've been
Leeching off of everything around me
I'll never be better than what you know I've become
This is what I was from the start
Walk away, it'll hurt less once you're gone
You shouldn't have to see me fall apart

I thought that after you
I would've learned something new
But it's never changing

It's obvious
And you'd call it treasonous
I was wrong to lie to us
About who I am, and who you thought I was

Am I just poison?
Are these the voices
Am I just poison?
Maybe this point is

Poison is what I am
I've always been this
You just never noticed
Poison, it's what I do to
Everyone and everything around me

I'll never get better than what you know I've become
This is what I've always been after every resolution
I'm spilling into decay, you'll see
My insides, my guts, my truths, and my lies