Nicólas Soul - Quarter Life Crisis Lyrics

Growing, changing
Moving to places
Feeling like I'm alone
Hoping, waiting
Losing my patience
Hate it when you all go
I lost myself inside this music
During my younger days
Partly cause I was an outcast
Partly cause of pain
I wanted people to hear my story
And get inspiration
The young Kenyan boy
Who had a dream and actually made it
Life was crazy
Grew up with two parents
I know that's a blessing
They gave me everything
And in exchange I never listened
I started rapping
Age 14 cause I was lonely
I would freestyle back in middle school
Until this moment
Everyone would clap
Infatuated with the message
Being all alone
I was just glad to be accepted
And so the journey started
I loved creating these records
I made friends making music
Those bonds really last forever
I mean
What more can I say to help you understand?
Music isn't what I do my g
It's really who I am
So my purpose in this game is to relay it to the fans
And give the same type of energy
That made me to a man
Growing, changing
Moving to places
Feeling like I'm alone
Hoping, waiting
Losing my patience
Hate it when you all go
I had a quarter life crisis
Freshmen year of college
I wasn't sleeping well
Avoiding all my f*cking problems
I wonder what my purpose was
Trynna find the knowledge
But every question made a question
So I had to stop it
Fighting with my conscious
Until I lost my sanity
And suicide seemed the only route
That shit was damaging
Scrambling
Trynna sort my mental
With this pressure
And my grades kept dropping
So my spirit felt lesser
Oh no
I gave up December 2017
Trying to end my life
By overdosing on like anything
I could find in my first aid kit, tripping
Knowing death is permanent
Can't believe that I did it
I mean now I'm different
The worse month I had now behind me
I failed every class
But I passed on not dying
I guess I had to live through
And say that I made it
Being able to inspire you
Has been my consolation
Growing, changing
Moving to places
Feeling like I'm alone
Hoping, waiting
Losing my patience
Hate it when you all go
Look
You see the levels
I see my demons
I see the devil
I live a SICK life and a sick life
With bad habits
Can't this life get the best of me
I got blood infecting me
And blood protecting me
But all of my friends are dying
The pain is back to back
Rest in peace to Memory, Rico, X, and Mac
With both parents
You'd think life was like the Huxtables
Depending what the bill cost be
And don't have deductibles
Kickflips and nip slips
Watching porno as an infant
F*cked up my childhood
Don't worry dad
My life's good
It's me, mom, and Z
We our own family tree
How you branch off and leave
All you did was plant seeds
Nah you ain't loyal to the roots
So you had to kick rocks
Bye bye deuce deuce
Every once in a while
You'd sent me a text just to see how I do
But the devil don't wear Prada
Or that nigga ain't in a white tee
I looked in the mirror
And that nigga look just like me
Growing, changing
Moving to places
Feeling like I'm alone
Hoping, waiting
Losing my patience
Hate it when you all go
You all go
We grow old
Losing control
Out on my own
And I'm still growing
Changing
Moving
Alone